Sunday, October 26, 2008 ~ 7:52 AM
Tolerance
Just had another quarell with my family. As usual, tears of anger flooded my brother's eyes while my mother is busying herself with housework chores.
Sometimes I do wonder, why am I always the one putting up with everything? I can tolerate a multitude of insults, jeers, snide remarks, sarcasm, scoldings and humiliation. I can even tolerate it when people blamed me for something I never did or maligned me. You may think that's foolish. Why not rage and cry over all these grievances? People might be more sensitive about your emotions and more careful with their words. Why hide in all in the deepest and darkest corner in your heart? Why only let the melancholy overcome you when you're alone? Why not start dropping a tear?
But that's just not what I would do. I just don't get aggitated and go berserk over such misfortunes. I won't start slamming doors and throwing anything I could grab. I do feel sad, but I won't cry and start slitting my arms, legs and wrists.
What do I do then?
None of the above.
I tolerate it.
Perhaps it's because of this characteristic of mine. People always seem to take advantage of it. My brother was using both the television and the computer earlier. I asked him if he could just ue one of them and let me use the other. He said no. This little disagreement ended up with both my mother and her son screaming at me. Both went into their rooms then. I stayed in the living room and took deep breaths. I will tolerate it.
I don't know how long this characteristic of mine would last. Neither do I know what would happen to me when I can no longer tolerate. Whisperingroads, sometimes tolerating all these could leave me trembling uncontrollaby. It's so fortunate I could pour everything here. Really. You have my utmost gratitude.
Saturday, October 18, 2008 ~ 7:29 AM
Walking On AirBe Warned. The contents of the front part of this post will be definitely unrelated to you and undoubtedly boring. Please proceed to the questionaire instead.
Good day folks! Pleasure to see you guys again! A concise update about me. I have gotten back the results of my Promotional Exams for quite a period of time. The results just don't seem to be proportional to the efforts put in. No point mulling over it now though. I managed to secure 2 Higher two and 2 Higher one passes. Its supposed to allow me to promote,but regrettably, Chinese couldnt be counted as one T.T
Yesterday, our group went to Bishan library for our project work. I remembered that I was very irritated and displeased over certain behaviors of my groupmates.
Firstly, one of my groupmates told me he couldn't make it to our meetings during the weekends. It is rather understandable because he had to celebrate his birthday with his relatives and his friends during the 2 days. However, when we asked him to stay back on Friday to complete our Written Report, he actually produced a lame excuse about having to retrieve his repaired phone. As a matter of fact, all the other members have completed their parts by then and were preparing to collate them, he was the only who hasnt and yet he refused to stay back with us.
Secondly, our report has exceeded the word limit of 3000 words. Yes, I understand the need to summarise and make our report as concise as possible. However, reducing wordcount on the expense of the clarity and designated impact of sentences and points is unintelligible, the sentence would be a mere combination of words, impossible to understand and close to senseless garbage.
Gahh, I really have to stop venting my emotions here. Besides, all of us are doing everything for the goodwill of our group, except in different ways, no point whining ehh?
Oh yahh this is the questionaire waeting wanted me to do. The last person who tagged me : Waeting Your relationship with him/her is : good friend Your impression of him/her : jovial and lame xD The most memorable thing he/she done for you : hmm, a shower of little nice stuff, but it adds up you see ^^ The most memorable thing he/she said to you: you're very lame If he/she becomes your lover, you will : be Jiro? thats the only guy she's devoted to xP If he/she becomes your lover, things that he/she have to improve on: I have no idea of the desired qualities Jiro wnts for a girlfriend. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be : Jiro is ghay and in love with me. The most desired thing you want to do now is : Finish my novel. Overall impression of him/her : Nice and lame How you think people around you feel about: Weird and flirtatous? Although I deny the latter with utmost ability. The character you love about yourself is : Optimism is one of my best traits xD On the contrary, the character you hate about yourself : you mean characteristics -.- , hmm I get nervous and panicked every easily. The most ideal person I want to be : I am at peace with myself.
Pass this to 10 person you wish to know how they feel about you.
Yuheng Francesca Misshelle June Siowyun Sharleen Xuanhan Peiming Ninet Seniors ( any 1 of them)
Who is no.6 having a relationship with : No one Is no.9 a male or a female: Supposedly female If no.7 and no.10 is together, will it be a good thing? : Depends on which senior you're talking about How about no.5 and no.8: Singapore doesn't really encourage such relationships. What is no.2 studying about: Pure geography and double sciences if I am not wrong When was the last time you had a chat with no.3: Currently. What music band does no.8 like : Fahrenheit I presume Does no.1 have any siblings? : 2 elder sisters Will you woo no.3 : It would be impossible xD How about no.7: No way. Whats the surname of no.5? : Wong Hobby of no.4? : Dancing Do no.5 and no.9 get along? They don't know each other. Where is no.2 studying at? Deyi Secondary Say something casually about no.1? : hes my best buddy. Have you tried to develop feelings with no.8? Nope Where does no.9 live at? Opps. What colours does no.4 likes? Hmm white, pink and pale blue? Are no.1 and no.5 best friends? Total strangers. Does no.7 like no.2? They don't each other too. How do you get to know no.2? Through Clarice Does no.1 have any pets? Dog and tortoise? xD Is no.7 the scariest person on the world? No, he's the lamest I think.
Done. OMG. This questionaire took up so much of my time! Almost an hour. Its definitely like an exam paper. Hoppee I don't phaill ;D
Gotta go now. Goodbye =)
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Sunday, October 26, 2008 ~ 7:52 AM
Tolerance
Just had another quarell with my family. As usual, tears of anger flooded my brother's eyes while my mother is busying herself with housework chores.
Sometimes I do wonder, why am I always the one putting up with everything? I can tolerate a multitude of insults, jeers, snide remarks, sarcasm, scoldings and humiliation. I can even tolerate it when people blamed me for something I never did or maligned me. You may think that's foolish. Why not rage and cry over all these grievances? People might be more sensitive about your emotions and more careful with their words. Why hide in all in the deepest and darkest corner in your heart? Why only let the melancholy overcome you when you're alone? Why not start dropping a tear?
But that's just not what I would do. I just don't get aggitated and go berserk over such misfortunes. I won't start slamming doors and throwing anything I could grab. I do feel sad, but I won't cry and start slitting my arms, legs and wrists.
What do I do then?
None of the above.
I tolerate it.
Perhaps it's because of this characteristic of mine. People always seem to take advantage of it. My brother was using both the television and the computer earlier. I asked him if he could just ue one of them and let me use the other. He said no. This little disagreement ended up with both my mother and her son screaming at me. Both went into their rooms then. I stayed in the living room and took deep breaths. I will tolerate it.
I don't know how long this characteristic of mine would last. Neither do I know what would happen to me when I can no longer tolerate. Whisperingroads, sometimes tolerating all these could leave me trembling uncontrollaby. It's so fortunate I could pour everything here. Really. You have my utmost gratitude.
Saturday, October 18, 2008 ~ 7:29 AM
Walking On AirBe Warned. The contents of the front part of this post will be definitely unrelated to you and undoubtedly boring. Please proceed to the questionaire instead.
Good day folks! Pleasure to see you guys again! A concise update about me. I have gotten back the results of my Promotional Exams for quite a period of time. The results just don't seem to be proportional to the efforts put in. No point mulling over it now though. I managed to secure 2 Higher two and 2 Higher one passes. Its supposed to allow me to promote,but regrettably, Chinese couldnt be counted as one T.T
Yesterday, our group went to Bishan library for our project work. I remembered that I was very irritated and displeased over certain behaviors of my groupmates.
Firstly, one of my groupmates told me he couldn't make it to our meetings during the weekends. It is rather understandable because he had to celebrate his birthday with his relatives and his friends during the 2 days. However, when we asked him to stay back on Friday to complete our Written Report, he actually produced a lame excuse about having to retrieve his repaired phone. As a matter of fact, all the other members have completed their parts by then and were preparing to collate them, he was the only who hasnt and yet he refused to stay back with us.
Secondly, our report has exceeded the word limit of 3000 words. Yes, I understand the need to summarise and make our report as concise as possible. However, reducing wordcount on the expense of the clarity and designated impact of sentences and points is unintelligible, the sentence would be a mere combination of words, impossible to understand and close to senseless garbage.
Gahh, I really have to stop venting my emotions here. Besides, all of us are doing everything for the goodwill of our group, except in different ways, no point whining ehh?
Oh yahh this is the questionaire waeting wanted me to do. The last person who tagged me : Waeting Your relationship with him/her is : good friend Your impression of him/her : jovial and lame xD The most memorable thing he/she done for you : hmm, a shower of little nice stuff, but it adds up you see ^^ The most memorable thing he/she said to you: you're very lame If he/she becomes your lover, you will : be Jiro? thats the only guy she's devoted to xP If he/she becomes your lover, things that he/she have to improve on: I have no idea of the desired qualities Jiro wnts for a girlfriend. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be : Jiro is ghay and in love with me. The most desired thing you want to do now is : Finish my novel. Overall impression of him/her : Nice and lame How you think people around you feel about: Weird and flirtatous? Although I deny the latter with utmost ability. The character you love about yourself is : Optimism is one of my best traits xD On the contrary, the character you hate about yourself : you mean characteristics -.- , hmm I get nervous and panicked every easily. The most ideal person I want to be : I am at peace with myself.
Pass this to 10 person you wish to know how they feel about you.
Yuheng Francesca Misshelle June Siowyun Sharleen Xuanhan Peiming Ninet Seniors ( any 1 of them)
Who is no.6 having a relationship with : No one Is no.9 a male or a female: Supposedly female If no.7 and no.10 is together, will it be a good thing? : Depends on which senior you're talking about How about no.5 and no.8: Singapore doesn't really encourage such relationships. What is no.2 studying about: Pure geography and double sciences if I am not wrong When was the last time you had a chat with no.3: Currently. What music band does no.8 like : Fahrenheit I presume Does no.1 have any siblings? : 2 elder sisters Will you woo no.3 : It would be impossible xD How about no.7: No way. Whats the surname of no.5? : Wong Hobby of no.4? : Dancing Do no.5 and no.9 get along? They don't know each other. Where is no.2 studying at? Deyi Secondary Say something casually about no.1? : hes my best buddy. Have you tried to develop feelings with no.8? Nope Where does no.9 live at? Opps. What colours does no.4 likes? Hmm white, pink and pale blue? Are no.1 and no.5 best friends? Total strangers. Does no.7 like no.2? They don't each other too. How do you get to know no.2? Through Clarice Does no.1 have any pets? Dog and tortoise? xD Is no.7 the scariest person on the world? No, he's the lamest I think.
Done. OMG. This questionaire took up so much of my time! Almost an hour. Its definitely like an exam paper. Hoppee I don't phaill ;D
Gotta go now. Goodbye =)
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